VT shootings

I was in Blacksburg for 3 weeks this summer. I stayed at the Holiday Inn a block from campus. I know a kid from High School who plays football there. I rode my bike through campus. I golfed at the campus course. To think about what happened there yesterday is painful.
I wonder what I would have done in that situation. I wonder what the killer looked like. I wonder what it would sound like. But most of all, I wonder what was going on in his head. How could one person want to do that much harm to people he doesn't even know? This is a good blog by somebody who had a play writing class with him. From what the blog says, there were warning signs everywhere, like there are with most school shootings.

I can almost understand...no, sympathize with someone who gets to the point where they would want to take their own lives, but why take others down with you? When did he get to the point where he just gave up? Could anything been done to stop all this? Could he have changed his views about the world. Get married. Have beautiful children?

I know that even if there were answers to these questions they wouldnt help much, but one cant help but wonder. I feel for his parents, more so than the parents of other victims. Even though they may have some part to blame, they still lost a son, and their son still produced one of the most heinous crimes in American history. How does a parent live with this?

The only thing we can do is to try and help others who seem like they have lost their way, and we can try to live each day with happiness and hope to instill that happiness in others. It may make no difference at all, but at least we can say we did all we could do. At least we wouldnt have so many questions.